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| GOING INTO HIDING |
[24 Jan 2005|07:38pm] |
ATTN:
due to a need for privacy in my life considering current circumstances i have created a new livejournal
you can find me at ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) early_graves
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| i am NOT a medicated drama queen. |
[23 Jan 2005|03:52pm] |
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mmm coke!!!!!! COKE! COKE!!!!! |
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the chinese stars - passing out nails |
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very lovely and relaxing weekend with my boy here in irvine...i like him a lot alot & i think everybody else did too. it was fun. drank so much cheap wine. mmmm my fave.
however i wish we didnt constantly have to deal with all these people who think they can fuck with him or us, makes us very mad. bad combo.
we dont like drama, but it ensues when necessary. or whenever i fucking feel like it.
but i surprised him with tickets for us to see the locust and the plot to blow up the eiffel tower next month & so that made him pretty happy.
anyways i love him immensely he is so gorgeous and adorable.
anyway now i have to spend the rest of the day memorizing psycho anal ysis for a wonderful midterm tomorrow, woohoo
l8er sk8er
sissy na na.
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[20 Jan 2005|09:07am] |
pleasepleasePLEASE
let this be a better day.
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| movie of a poet's wife, staring at my bellybutton thinking of the bigger things in life. |
[18 Jan 2005|01:53am] |
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4 times today. |
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give me back my deep puddle dynamics cd! |
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this weekends drama was ridiculous
a few psychotic people made me violent. like i cant even get over how crazy they are.
but then joey fixed it you know, straightened them out..took care of me, gave me what i need.
i had a blissful weekend with the boy, better every single time i have him. amazing.
also, my mom like disowned me or whatever. i dont get it
but all in all things are really really good.
joey made me drink at 11:30am today by myself. not even noon! crazy boy. then i passed out.
him &sean are designing me a tattoo. hopefully next week ill get it done.
pictures from the weekend & joeys art & stuff
( CrAzY PiCz BrAh )
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| the greatest revenge is living well |
[14 Jan 2005|12:01am] |
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im going hunting |
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some weird emo crap (mai-ly) |
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Im in such a great mood despite/because of my constantly dramatic life through phone calls...mai-ly must be entertained. Everyones at a frat party but I am content sitting here. i talked to Joeys dad on the phone for so long tonight. He is truly amazing and I feel honored to know him. I guess if i ever need any back up, Im definitely covered. I love that. BEST NEWS its a 3day weekend, Im going home tomorrow (home as in northridge/encino...not my actual house ha ha who goes there), Im finally getting back to his bed tomorrow, Im going to not need to smoke any more disgusting shwag tomorrow. Hopefully going painting with Joey (that is if we leave his room) watch him hang off freeways and whatnot. These are all great things. Not to mention being reunited with my main family (kay seanie miranda robb atticus becky joey jil & everyone else). Honestly its so nice having such good things to look forward to all the time. Anticipation! Wow look at me, being so positive. & not flipping out over tonights 'situation' cause believe me I could be (for no reason whatsoever)but I am choosing not to. I choose to trust this time. or just be normal. Overanalyzing again.
PS The Doors are the greatest band of all time, but I didnt need to remind you did I.
I guess people get bored of you when youre actually happy for once. so much better that way.
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| and i never even drink beer |
[13 Jan 2005|02:00am] |
Beer bongs are the best invention ever. That is all.
I would do anything to have my OBEY sweatshirt back.
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| I LOVE THIS BOY. |
[11 Jan 2005|08:47pm] |
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resinated, happy. |
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david bowie -the man who sold the world |
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look, i dont care what your daddy
says. j. edgar hoover is just not that
good a guy. like he must have infor-
mation on every person inside the
white house that if the public knew
about, could destroy those people/
if any of the knowledge that he's
got ever got out, are you kidding,
the whole country would probably
quit their jobs & revolt. he aint never
gonna lose his job. he will resign with
honor. you just wait & see...cant you figure
out all this commie business for yourself?
you know, like how long can car thieves
terrify the nation? gotta go. there's a
fire engine chasing me. see you when i get
my degree. i'm going crazy without you.
cant see enough movies
your crippled lover,
benjamin turtle
PS SONATA RULEZ
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| HMW help me write |
[09 Jan 2005|11:07pm] |
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<3 cafe1 |
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george ringo john paul |
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this weekend was incredible. godamn i hate having to leave LA. basically i could just go on blabbing on for days about how perfect my joey is, how much i love everything about him & his life & everything we do & the way all this is so scarily perfect. my partner, my team, he is exactly what i'd imagine my dream boy to be. he gave me the greatest vintage beatles t-shirt that i am in love with (gotten from his godfather, ronnie james dio, lead singer black sabbath after ozzy left the band), & last night he played his show at the CIA while i photographed/played the moroccos/drank whiskey & it went fabulously. afterwards i slept in his heavenly bed & his dad brought us lots of drugs & money because he loves us, & we basically had the best evening ever until 7am when we passed out til 5pm. then tonight i got to see everybody special at the apartment, even jilly, & celebrate a little before joey & sean took me & roomie back here to irvine. now my boy is gone, but im not worried. ive never been happier. life is good.
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[07 Jan 2005|07:37pm] |
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modest mouse. |
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blame it on the weekends.
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| i am the lizard king! |
[05 Jan 2005|11:41pm] |
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buzzed |
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stairway to heaven |
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tonight i spent way too many hours being obsessed with playing GTA san andreas & drinking margaritas & having alex put a pipe in my mouth. classes are quite good so far (psychology, sociological anthropology, & humanities. all very interesting), & it's not bad being back. but i really miss home. luckily sean & my boy are kidnapping me from irvine on friday so i'm pretty excited for that. hopefully tonight won't be spent writhing in pain & vomitting every hour & not sleeping at all like last night...this is what happens when they take you away
ive got bruises on my body where his hipbones usually lay.
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| kisses make my cheeks smile |
[04 Jan 2005|12:57am] |
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in place. |
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joey & adultswim |
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this is my last night in los angeles. these three weeks have just flown by. i'm unbelievably sad, it's been the most amazing winter break i could ever hope for. so much drugs & love & laughing & friends, life has been excessive chaotic perfection. but i know all good things must come to an end, life is not one giant party. i'm ready to go back to college, get my brain away from all these mind-altering substances, live my life happily in sunny irvine, doing homework & being good. & now everything is just so much better than before since i've got joey, my gorgeous rockstar jim morisson boyfriend who constantly makes me wonder how i got so damn lucky, finding such a talented amazing sexy boy who actually has a brain AND a heart. i can't explain it, it's scary how well everything has been falling into place. im in a really good place right now, growing up never felt so good. thankkkk you very much. good shit comes to those who wait!
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[01 Jan 2005|02:10pm] |
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recovring |
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the doors - love her madly |
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this was by far the most eventful new years ever, one to go down in the history books. i was completely out of my mind & falling in&out of consciousness by 7pm, when joey carried me all around la & finally into bed & took care of me. he woke me up with my new years kiss exactly at midnight, & i awoke to find tons of friends & people at the apartment so i proceeded to let the good times...roll. im a badass motherfucker, out of control. so i partied til 6am when my boyfriend passed out. i had an amazing time. & i love him.
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| L-U-V |
[28 Dec 2004|01:55pm] |
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glow |
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jil's cd |
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hello
yes i am still alive
yes i have never been happier.
this winter break has been incredible, last night especially. completely insane.
i have the most amazing friends
and joey & me are perfect, this is my new life. i cant get enough of him.
happy newlyweds
so much can change in just one week.
lucky lucky me.
this is going to be the best new years ever!
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| i scored 200 bucks this morning |
[18 Dec 2004|12:53pm] |
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contentfully yours |
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the police |
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ha
ha
ha.
oh this crazy life.
i secretly love it.
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| pocketful of scoundrel |
[17 Dec 2004|02:55pm] |
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wonderful |
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the rolling stones - under my thumb |
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It is a really beautiful day.
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| GUESS WHICH ONES YOU |
[16 Dec 2004|12:07pm] |
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loverly |
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damien |
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1. you're the only friend who's truly there whenever i need you, for anything, you're there before anyone else. plus i have known you for-ev-er.
2. you've changed so much in the past 3 months sometimes it scares me. but i love you, will always, & nothing could ever stop you from being the hilarious & interesting person that you've always been. & im scared but i love you.
3. you taught me most of what i know about life & love, i'll always thank you for that. you gave me the best days of my life to date. now im shut out, & i wish you weren't so afraid of someone knowing you this well, taking it out on my heart.
4. perfect personality with one fatal flaw. nevertheless you are funsweethilarious&beautiful.
5. fuck you fuck you fuck you, why did i ever think you were cool, you're just bad & creepy & made me ruin my whole life. nothing will ever be the same again. although ive been free of your filth for good, it haunts, always will. i'll always remember ya!
6. the funniest guy i know, been through thick & thin, banishment hatred guilt betrayal or simply just fun. we have a humor only we can understand. love you, always, even though i worry about you & sometimes fear i might lose you to something really stupid. take better care of yourself, i know you wont.
7. i wish you wouldnt be so hard on yourself. you genuinely are a sweet person & people take advantage of that. try & see the brighter side of things. i really appreciate all the effort you put into being a good friend/person, & you are to me.
8. go suck a fat cock you stupid fat fucking ugly bitch & i hope youre miserable forever. oh yeah & youre really gross sluts too. (this goes out to ohh about 5-6 people)
9. i have a crush on you. but you're kind of a flake. or maybe just a stoner. your cuteness makes up for it, so do sweet kisses, the cuddles, the way you refuse to let me go & never want to get out of bed.
10. last but absolutely definitely never ever least, my darling sister girl i live with, who life fuckin sucks without. no one keeps me as sane & happy as you. thanks for being my boyfriend, my bestfriend, anything i need all in one amazing beautiful package of a girl. tickle you when youre crying, give you medicine when youre sick, i'll always be there for you.
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| snowball in hell |
[13 Dec 2004|07:09pm] |
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deuced |
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elloitt smith |
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I figure this is cool.
this way my list wont become unnecessarily longer.
oh yeah & winter rules!
;) happy holidays
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| celebrate good times come on |
[10 Dec 2004|12:46am] |
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cold & wet |
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coldplay - spies. |
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very good last night. bye irvine!! i will miss you quite dearly.
this thingy is so smart:
ps if one more creep hits on me/obsesses over my life i am going to scream.
<333
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